Gotta have some Carbs

Well, my forray into low carb was not a success. Maybe I did not persevere long enough to beat the withdrawls. By Day 3 I was so cranky and hungry - then I crashed hard and had a little carb fest. I did not enjoy the out of control feeling - much prefer the balanced feeling I have with whole grains added to at least two meals.So,back to a more balanced diet for me.

Noted an interesting fact this week - as we are down to one income due to my husband's lay off, and keeping a closer eye on finances. Our grocery spending is way down - eating more whole food and less processed has actually been much cheaper.

Still on the topic of food - I am so confused about the proper calorie count for me. I've been on so many websites and consulted several dietitians. Different answers from all. I know it is ultimately calories in must be less that calories out. But what is the right balance ? I can't seem to find it. I've done really low, moderate and high and none of them consistently work. So right now, I am trying moderate - 1500 - 1800 with a low day and a high day in the week to change it up and hopefully wake up my hibernating metabolism.

I've been in a kind of funk this week - and it's made me more in tune with my obvious emotional eating problem. When I am down and overwhelmed, food is still something I turn to. There are lots of things I can do for a diversion, but I don't choose to do so.

It is all about choices. A wise man I have discovered recently in the blog world made the lightbulb light up in that regard for me. It's not that I didn't know it before; but it just wasn't sinking in. Every step on this path is a choice. every piece of cholcolate, every night spent in front of the TV instead of walking or even "wii-ing" is a choice.

What do I need to do in my psyche to convince myself that I am worth the healthy choice? I need to be content with self love and self worth and not need so much external reinforcement. It's hard to do self talk though - way easier to avoid the truth and hide in food or a book or the computer. Looking inward at why we do the things we do can be painful. But what's that old cliche - no pain no gain !!

Goals that I set at the beginning of the week - partially met. I did increase the water intake and got up twice to walk. Fit in my yoga class twice but no other cardio.

Goals this week:
- track food and exercise on fatsecret.com - great website.
- 9 - 12 glasses of water/day
- some kind of exercise every day - at least 30 minutes
- stop the negative self talk by actively saying "STOP" to myself when it happens

think it, be it !!!!!!